Memories, Loneliness, Prayer

By

Kevin R Schultz

1-11-2026

Memories

  Can be a good thing or a sad thing. For instance, the first night saw Karen was when she and her friends walked into the bar I hug out at me and Karen saw each, that was an answer to a prayer I said earlier that day.

  Of course that is when God decided to show off His sense of humor. I was shooting a game of no-slop pool, the one where you had to call your shots. Well when Karen walked in I decided to sit down and talk to her, get to know her better. I tried to lose the game, but no matter what kind of shot I called, it worked. I finally had to give up the table so I talk to her.

  On Karen’s part, everytime I got up to take another shot she would move her closer to the one I was using, if she had moved any closer I would have ended up sitting on her lap.

  Then there was when she endeared herself to my mother. You see my mother would always make dinner for me and my brothers birthdays, we each had our favorites. Well my mother had got sick (cancer) Karen had decided she would do it for her, which touched my mothers heart. It also touched mine, my belly didn’t complain either. Then there is when my mother thanked Karen for cooking the meal for me. Then she also told Karen she was happy that I had finally met someone will be able to tame me. But my memory is a bit hazy on this.

  Then there was when I proposed to her, well that is not entirely accurate, let me explain. Karen and me were watching TV and talking on the couch. She  had a bad day at work and one of her bosses could her intimidate very easily.

  I chose that time to tell her that when we get married she would not have to deal with that anymore. Well when what I said finally sunk in she said yes and we had 45 years worth of blessings together.

 When Karen had her stroke I know some of her family were worried that I would leave her. I would always say the same thing, I married Karen for better or worse and that the worst had not happened yet. For you see the worse that could have happened was that she would have died.

Loneliness

  After 45 years of marriage and my wife is no longer here it really settles in.

When I am putzing on the puter at home I would hear a creak  coming from another part of the apartment. I would look expecting to see Karen coming into the home office, then realize that will not be happening anymore.

  There are TV shows I no longer watch because they were shows me and Karen would always watch together. We used to play cards all the time, but the worse her health got that happened less and less.

  Karen was like a carpenter working on a piece of, getting all the rough edges smooth as silk and that is one of the things Karen would do for me, smooth my rough edges.

  Well without Karen being there to apply the sandpaper I feel some of my edges starting to splinter. However I go to scripture whenever I feel myself getting a splinter. There are several verses in both the O.T. and N.T. you can look up. You can check out my Loneliness blog, if not at least look up verses… Phil. 4:13; 2 Thess. 3:3; 1 Corinthians 1:9; Matt. 5:37.

  I would also go to prayer myself, and also have others pray for me.

Prayer

  My prayer is…

Lord Father please guide me, show me what you want me to do. I want to be a workman unto you. I want to do your will and not my own, I want to show the light of Jesus who is living in my heart. I want you to take my will and bend it to yours.

  I am praying that this blog helps others who are going through the same things I am.

Amen